Fail

Not only do I fail at keeping up with this blog, I also have been failing at finding a job. I guess I always figured after I graduated college everyone would be running towards me with job opportunities and my life would be so easy. Not the case. At all. Not only is it incredibly annoying filling in applications on a day to day basis, no one ever even calls me back. Talk about fail. What have I learned? Graduating means nothing at this point. These jobs I am applying for are ones that I am over qualified for, both in years of school and past job history, but yet I still don't even get to interview for them. This process is slowly taking my patience. I've been trying to remind myself that everyone is in the same boat and no one is hiring, but its not helping. I really just didn't think it would be this hard. Warning for those of you that are just starting the search: expect it to suck. The okay news is that I do have a job till July as of now. The pool company I worked for last summer (and actually every summer since I was 15) wants me back. Not that this is maybe my ideal choice, but its a job and I love the people there. I just feel like I've failed going back to a job I had pre-diploma. But if they are the company that wants me, then I guess I'll take what I can get!

Today has just been a downer day. I should be happy that I will be getting paid and getting out of my house starting in 2 weeks, but I just thought at this point in my life I would have so much more. I would be living on my own, going to a big-girl job, and wearing suits. But maybe my time will come soon enough, I've got a little bit of maturing to do before heading out to the real world anyways. I still see myself as a 16 year old (even 5 years later) so I guess in some ways I can't imagine myself being completely grown up. Hopefully after this summer I can really nail down what exactly I want to do and then find it. The guy I talked to at a recruiting place told me the best advice he could give me is to stay where I am now (part time at Anthro) and figure out what exactly I am looking for. If you don't know 100% then you won't ever land a job because companies can tell the difference between something you could do and something you want to do. So I guess my next goal is to really start to research jobs and what I am cut out for.

So for now, I am back to working at Sears Pool full time and Anthropologie part time. The good news I guess is that I can wear tshirts to the first job and the 40% discount at the other never gets old. For anyone else in the job market search, good luck. And don't worry, you aren't alone!